I really thought I would post more often. I really did. Anyway Gray and I have inevitably fallen recklessly in Love. A few weeks ago he crossed the continent to come see me(and meet the family) When we saw each other we nearly burst into tears. For me it was five days on cloud nine. I finally had reasons to leave the house and branch out into town looking for adventure. Then when the sun went down we tried new foods with my best friend and had a delicious dinner. After he met my family I went back with him to Texas.
We were sleepy and starving after the eternal plane ride but we made it home safe to the four cats waiting by the door. (I Love them so much!) His wonderful family gave me a warm welcome and the stress and anxiety that had been weighing me down the past few months melted away like snow in the spring. For the next few days I adjusted to the cultural differences between us. Back home it wouldn't have been acceptable to embrace each other in the same room as the parents without receiving a death glare. Shoes in the house also wouldn't have been acceptable.
Obviously our tastes in food was different and I discovered a new allergy (There was silicone Dioxide in the seasoning)but trying new foods was worth it.
Near the scheduled end of the trip the news forecasted a storm due by the weekend.
"Looks like you'll be experiencing your first hurricane."
The rain came down hard along with the wind by nightfall. The next few days the floods began. My phone was blowing up with flood warnings every few minutes. I am extremely grateful Gray doesn't live in Houston. We were far from the floods but my friends and family were worried sick. Thanks to T-Mobile I couldn't contact them right away *Seethes with fiery rage* The cats weren't very fond of the lightening. One night Mist (Gray's little black panther) absolutely would not leave his side. He stared at him all day with worry in his emerald green eyes. Meanwhile TT (My favorite round Calico) planted herself in the bedroom doorway for the whole night. At first we were confused as to why the cats were acting so strangely. Then Gray concluded it was because they were protecting us.
"Cats can sense danger."
On the news there were stories about volunteers jumping in and helping victims and some of the news crew even jumped in to help. Rescue boats were cruising the streets looking for people. Stores were in and out of stock for water and essentials. Gray picked up plenty of bottled water for the house. Gray's family offered a place to stay if the floods hit us. Some streets were infested with gators and sharks. It was crazy knowing that the streets we drove on a few days before were completely underwater. Facebook was flooded with jokes and memes about Hurricane Harvey.
We stayed inside for the remainder of the trip and watched movies, played games, played with the cats, it was a grand opportunity for a bonding experience. However I did learn about how the rain affected my mood and how even on cloud 9 dipping into spiraling depression is too easy. Depression isn't caused by something and you can't just shake it off or pretend it's not there. Sometimes I would be relaxing and enjoying myself and giving the cats Love and my depression would sneak up on me and try to consume me. I put on a brave face and kept quiet but deep down I knew that therapy was long overdue and that I really wasn't okay. I preach to others that you should always talk about how you feel especially with your partner. Because they can't read your mind. There's no way they could know you were suffering inside unless it was showing through or if you told them directly. When the sun went down I spoke up, a little. To the best of my ability. Gray cheered me up and we laughed until sunrise. But a common misconception about relationships is that your partner can't "fix" you. Or "Cure" your depression. The best they can do is make you feel better for a while. Or make it feel worse depending on the type of relationship.
In summary the hurricane has been a wild experience but also opened doors for bonding opportunities. Also Texans are tough as nails and their spirit can't be broken!
-Just Jane
"To me this world is a wonderful place and I'm the luckiest human in the whole human race. I've got no silver and I've got no gold but I've got happiness in my soul."
-Ken Dodd
We were sleepy and starving after the eternal plane ride but we made it home safe to the four cats waiting by the door. (I Love them so much!) His wonderful family gave me a warm welcome and the stress and anxiety that had been weighing me down the past few months melted away like snow in the spring. For the next few days I adjusted to the cultural differences between us. Back home it wouldn't have been acceptable to embrace each other in the same room as the parents without receiving a death glare. Shoes in the house also wouldn't have been acceptable.
Obviously our tastes in food was different and I discovered a new allergy (There was silicone Dioxide in the seasoning)but trying new foods was worth it.
Near the scheduled end of the trip the news forecasted a storm due by the weekend.
"Looks like you'll be experiencing your first hurricane."
The rain came down hard along with the wind by nightfall. The next few days the floods began. My phone was blowing up with flood warnings every few minutes. I am extremely grateful Gray doesn't live in Houston. We were far from the floods but my friends and family were worried sick. Thanks to T-Mobile I couldn't contact them right away *Seethes with fiery rage* The cats weren't very fond of the lightening. One night Mist (Gray's little black panther) absolutely would not leave his side. He stared at him all day with worry in his emerald green eyes. Meanwhile TT (My favorite round Calico) planted herself in the bedroom doorway for the whole night. At first we were confused as to why the cats were acting so strangely. Then Gray concluded it was because they were protecting us.
"Cats can sense danger."
On the news there were stories about volunteers jumping in and helping victims and some of the news crew even jumped in to help. Rescue boats were cruising the streets looking for people. Stores were in and out of stock for water and essentials. Gray picked up plenty of bottled water for the house. Gray's family offered a place to stay if the floods hit us. Some streets were infested with gators and sharks. It was crazy knowing that the streets we drove on a few days before were completely underwater. Facebook was flooded with jokes and memes about Hurricane Harvey.
We stayed inside for the remainder of the trip and watched movies, played games, played with the cats, it was a grand opportunity for a bonding experience. However I did learn about how the rain affected my mood and how even on cloud 9 dipping into spiraling depression is too easy. Depression isn't caused by something and you can't just shake it off or pretend it's not there. Sometimes I would be relaxing and enjoying myself and giving the cats Love and my depression would sneak up on me and try to consume me. I put on a brave face and kept quiet but deep down I knew that therapy was long overdue and that I really wasn't okay. I preach to others that you should always talk about how you feel especially with your partner. Because they can't read your mind. There's no way they could know you were suffering inside unless it was showing through or if you told them directly. When the sun went down I spoke up, a little. To the best of my ability. Gray cheered me up and we laughed until sunrise. But a common misconception about relationships is that your partner can't "fix" you. Or "Cure" your depression. The best they can do is make you feel better for a while. Or make it feel worse depending on the type of relationship.
In summary the hurricane has been a wild experience but also opened doors for bonding opportunities. Also Texans are tough as nails and their spirit can't be broken!
-Just Jane
"To me this world is a wonderful place and I'm the luckiest human in the whole human race. I've got no silver and I've got no gold but I've got happiness in my soul."
-Ken Dodd
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